From a boy to the man...

Going some four years back..I was a good boy...a brilliant student,a good sportsman,school's best debater,school's head boy,mama's good son and a MAN in making...I cracked JEE and was set to achieve big in life...that was the first step toward my gradation from a good boy to a successful man....

Coming to present..I am jobless..I have been ditched by my girlfriend..I am a regular smoker..I drink too much..I am considered to be a political guy with no ethics and lots of cunningness inside me..I have more enemies than friends..I got my degree summer extended..I am again in love with a girl who thinks I am not what I appear to be..all my seniors are settled,all my juniors are going good and all my friends are set to make their marks in the topsy-turvy pathway of life..

Still people find I am happily satisfied..even I think so..but what is the truth..am I happy?..am I satisfied?..considering myself to be a part of the world I am living in..my mates..my family I am more than a successful lad..I can't find a single person close to me who is unsatisfied or sad..this all makes me feel good but what about me..I though never think it in this way but sometimes when I am alone it makes me sad..I automatically feel the growing unsatisfaction inside..

My college days are about getting over..I consider what I got..5 close to heart friends(rahul,bhaskar,abhishek,shiva and shubham)...some 10 thinking-about-themselves seniors...lots of loving-caring juniors..some 10 good friends..a girlfriend(sweety) who ditched me for her family..another failed love-interest(R***I)..regular smoking and heavy drinking habit..a practically fake chemical engineering degree..a stud CV which is till date unsuccessful in getting me a job..lots of people cursing me for my deeds..awards and wins for the hostel which never gave me what I deserved..a family for whom I am still the best..

I still can't decide I achieved or I lost in this gradation from a boy to the MAN..I still have various aims to be accomplished...I wish to get a job..I wish my love-interest to understand she is the one for me..I wish to complete my degree sooner and I wish all my mates to get more happier..my wish lists still goes a long way and its a fact that I always got what I wished..but there is a difference in what I wish and what I really want..I want to go 4 years back...start a fresh..

"I cracked JEE..I continued my charismatic school life here also..I established myself as a brilliant student who is good in cult and sports..I got a first day job..all my friends are happy..I fell in love with r***i..she too got interested and we lived happily after..I don't smoke..I don't drink..no one dislikes me..everywhere there is happiness and satisfaction...my mates..my family..my girlfriend and yes surely ME..all happy.."...this is all what I wanted...the pathway I wanted to be followed for my growing from a boy to the MAN..

Dasvidaniyan!!